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Wednesday, April 27, 2005
Mr Right
well, i really don't know whats with the "trend" of getting married young these days. other than the old friend i bumped into recently who just got married, my mum told me my old childhood friend, peter, also just got married recently. coincidentally these 2 old friends are also in sydney now. and peter is my age. that mighty young for a guy i say. i really can't believe it. its pretty scary to think of it, you never know whose wedding bells you'll be hearing next.
maybe some feel there is never a "right" age to get married, as long as they feel that they've found the right person and they are ready to settle down they just do it. for me, at 20, my life hasn't even really got started. im still in school, i haven't really met enough people, i haven't enjoyed my life enough. marriage has never even crossed my mind (for now, that is). to think that some people say "it takes a lifetime to find that perfect one" 20yrs isnt much of a lifetime for me, i haven't even had enough time to decide whos the perfect one for me, maybe i haven't even met him yet. i guess some are just lucky they found the right person, at the right time, right place.
speaking of time, i recall a casual conversation with my aunt and uncle in the car, with the kids. they were talking about dating, so i asked them how long they dated before they got married and my uncle said 2yrs! like wow, thats not very long, BUT i can understand because for them, they were old enough so they didnt have to date long, as long as they felt they were right to be together and that the time was right. we are still so young, we still have so much ahead, so many people to meet, how do you know if your current bf is the perfect one or not? ok i think it is easier to tell if he isn't the perfect one... but when you don't know, what makes you decide if he is the one or not? how do you know when that person is mr right? is love just like a trial and error?
since the topic is marriage here, how bout infidelity. we all know people change, you never know what will happen. IF one day, you find out your husband cheated on you, will you turn a blind eye and cry silently or trash it out with him? will you get divorced? i mean, getting married isn't just like getting into another relationship where breaking up is easier than a divorce. how strong are you? especially if you already have kids...
marriage is starting to scare me a bit. i certainly don't wanna be like gabrielle solis, and well, affairs just complicate things further.
Tuesday, April 26, 2005
i was having lessons today when the store called me to say my shoes had arrived. i asked them to put it on hold for me and ill go see it tmr. then i was just thinking about the lay-by system in Australia. in a way its good cos if you really really want it but don't have the cash you can reserve it (although thats usually not the case), and putting a deposit means they won't release your item to other interest buyers. the lay-by period is usually 6 or 8 weeks depending on the store. and if you actually change your mind, most stores will allow a refund for the deposit although your lay-by fee won't be. but anyway its only around $2 for most stores. the bad part of that, in my case, is that if i really like it, but can't bear to pay so much, yet i can't bear to part with it, ill just put a lay-by so i can take my time to think about it. in the end i always can't bear to let it go cos since i already put it on lay-by, its almost "mine" hahaha.... shopping is a monster thats always out to get me. then again, when im happy i shop, when im bored i shop, when im angry i shop, when im sad i shop, even when im hungry i eat and shop. i can't find a reason not to shop. its so hard to refrain. the good thing about customer service and benefits here is that you can have a full refund for any item, even sale items, if theres a defect, or even if you change your mind. sometimes they would give you a credit note for change of mind items instead of a full refund, so that way you have to spend in that store. but who cares, as long as i get my money back in some form right?
its bad...for people like me, lay-by is bad. and damn it...today daph purposely made a date with me to go for the fashion show on the 5th knowing that my body is obviously stuck here. but nvm my mind will be there. hahaha. ahhhh i can't wait to go back and get all my stuff that i have been buying back there!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Back to the previous issue, i just dont understand why a simple message or set of instructions has to go through internationally and eventually end with me. She knows her son is a procrastinator (thanx yun for bringing the word up) and she definitely knows he is totally clueless about housework and everything else so whyyyyyyyyyyyyyy i repeat whyyyyyyyyyy can't she call him and just check on him now and then? moreover its not like its gonna cost her more on telephone bills becos they do call him every few days or at least once a week now. what i mean is, instead of just asking how are you why not go straight to the problem instead of going through mediums.
Im totally not pissed or irritated with him for being such a baby. Im really ok with it i don't expect him to know everything (or anything) about housework. And im fine with doing all these things for him. But at least spare me with the complaints when she simply could have told him what should have been done because i have done it a gazillion times and i don't need other pple to remind me that I should do something about it. I have done my part.
Even Neh thinks that my mum treats him like "the son she never had", i second that, in comparison to how his mum prepared him before he left. Seriously, she really has the let-him-fend-for-himself attitude towards Neh. I even recall her telling me that. And Neh also doesnt mention his needs or difficulties to his parents. There was once, he actually wanted to borrow money from me because he needed to pay the 6month bond for the apt and still needed to set aside some for the houseware and stuff. And im like, huh why don't you just ask your parents to send you more. because initially he didnt have the intention of moving so soon so they didnt send him that big an amount so that he could move anytime. he just refused to ask his parents because he said he just didnt like asking for money and just wanted to borrow from me and would return it to me when he receives the next lump sum in 2 months. Seriously, that EGO. Its just plainnnnnn ego that he doesnt want to ask for money from his parents even though its for the apartment and neccessities. I just didnt like the fact that he diedie also won't ask from his parents. On that point, I feel that is not being very fair to me because hey even though he would return me the money upon receiving the next sum, its not as if my money is spare cash. I have to live on that too. Honestly i have absolutely no qualms about lending him money. But we're talking ego now. Any advice or comments on this issue would be gladly appreciated.
Anyway, its so funny how the actions and reactions of both of them just eventually end up with me. Like HELLO!?!?!? Why am i tying up all the loose ends??
It can get really frustrating after sometime. I know im his gf and i should help him. I practically do everything for him, but point is, there is that 5% where i can't do everything for him, so as a parent she should step in and help in or at least nag or remind him whenever she calls, instead of telling my mum!!!!!!!!!
Now im beginning to resent the fact that our mums know each other.
Wednesday, April 20, 2005
I don't know why, but i feel really despressed for no apparent reason.
Maybe i haven't dealt with such feelings for quite a long time that suddenly i feel as though everything is crashing down on me.
Maybe im just homesick and that i just miss too many things.
Maybe i just need to sleep this over and hopefully i will be back to my usual self tmr morning.
Sunday, April 17, 2005
Missing You
Ok, i've gotten over all the hysteria. Put that silly phase aside. Im over it!!!
Was looking through all the photographs i have in my HDD. I sort my photos by date/event. And just seeing them makes me miss everyone so much. I really love the ones during Mau's bday last yr, and the Xmas gathering we had at Yun's in '03, there were some really great pictures. We really had fun times, *sighs* why do we have to grow up? Everyone, Jamie, Yun, Mau, Adele, Louey, Gwen, Gen, Sue i miss you all...
And Jeana, i miss you too. I was looking at the silly pictures we took at Centro at Louisa's party, Xmas 2003, halloween... those were good times. A pity there werent many pictures of later events...
i know i know...everyone has to grow up and stop thinking about fun fun fun...
I just really miss everyone... =(
Addiction
Having my own laptop is bad. I stay up till really late everyday surfing the net, reading a lot, editing photographs, watching videos of friends and my pets repeatedly. Before i had a laptop i always felt that i never ever had enough time at the computer cos whenever my dad comes back from work, he would always wanna use the computer. So now that i have my own, i think its really really bad. The internet is really addictive. Theres chuckloads of information to read and once you start you can't really bring yourself to stop. and OMG its 4am now.
Gotta wake up early to meet Neh & his mum to go to the Fish Market tmr. No. 1 i dont know if i can wake up since im still awake at this hour (i know its my fault if that happens). No. 2 even if i can wake up, i dunno if i should go cos i was suppose to do my work just now, but i couldnt get access to my assignment question which is on the student intranet cos the website is down. So i havent started on that assignment at all which is due on Tuesday. i mean, this decision to head to the Fish Market was really sudden, it was ok if i didnt go initially, but i cant remember how our convo reached to a conclusion that i would be going. i think i said something but i really cant remember.
i bumped an old friend in Chinatown today. i was VERYVERYVERY shocked to see her because i havent seen her in years, the most shocking part was that SHE IS MARRIED. well, ok ive heard stuff about her from family friends and all that things havent been going right, but what i heard wasnt to this extent. and, i knew she was in sydney all this while, we were exchanging a few msgs on friendster and she gave me her contact number, i even stored it in my mobile phone but i just didnt call her. well, i am still recovering from the shock that she's married. my jaw practically dropped when she told me that and she even flashed her gigantic diamond ring and introduced her husband to me. he's quite young, definitely below 30.
we exchanged numbers and shortly after parting ways, she texted me and asked if we could meet up sometime. somehow or so i am rather reluctant to, cos i know her very well, and her character................. i told my mum about it. she said that i should try to talk some sense into her.
i am still shocked...
Saturday, April 16, 2005
ARGHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!! I HATE MYSELF!!!!!! SHIT!!!!!!!!!! ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH...
Dammit im having a headache now.. better go to bed its 2:40am am
Just simply hating myself nowwwwwww!!!!!!!!
Hall & Oates - She's Gone
Friday, April 15, 2005
Indonesia: The Land of Money Making Opportunities
for those who havent been to Indo and don't know what traffic is like, this is just a simple example.
At every U-turn, there will always be a young teenage boy, or an adult male standing at the bend of the turn controlling the traffic for those who are U-turning. Before these cars move off, they "tip" him with either 100 rupiah (approx SGD $0.20) or some even 200-500, what ever shillings they have basically. so can u imagine how many cars use that U-turn a day and how much he can earn in a day? Lets say 2000 cars pass that U-turn a day, thats
100*2000 = 200 000 (eq to SGD $40) so in a month, he earns Rp 600,000 which is SGD $1200. Thats probably what an office job would bring you. And its considered A LOT in Indo.
So last Dec when i went back, my family and i were on the way to the CBD area where my Aunt office is. She had to go back to the office to get something important, so the driver took the normal route they would take to work. This is really interesting. The main road led to a 1 lane side road, there was this young man standing on the road divider, and there was a medium size rock, probably about the size of 2 bricks, in the middle of the road. Then the car stopped. I asked my auntie what happened and why did the car stop? She told me that we have to wait for the man to roll the rock away so that cars could pass. Before the car moved off, the driver tipped the man off. My aunt told me that this young man stands there every single day, sometimes with a different rock. So, he earns money from rolling away rocks. Interesting.
Yes, this "job" involves standing there rain or shine. But can u imagine how many thousand cars pass that road every day since it is within the CBD area? You can surely earn a decent living out of that. I salute this man for his clever idea. I mean, since you can make a living out of practically ANYTHING in Indo, i think thats a pretty clever way to do so. Yet i don't see other people copying this idea. Some are just plain lazy to move a limb. They just sit there on the streets and stretch their hands out. Some are worse. They lie there, cover their faces with newspaper, sleep, have a small woven basket between their legs and expect money to drop into their basket.
Thursday, April 14, 2005
omg....i am soooo dead..... i am so so so so dead. i cant keep my eyes off the screen!!!!!!! help meeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!! hahahahahha my god *excited*
Wednesday, April 13, 2005
ouch...my left eye really hurts. think it must be my contacts.
the weather is getting colder and colder. and its gonna rain alot this week. i practically check the weather forecast everyday so i can avoid wearing shoes out, cos when it rains all my shoes get ruined. for some of my shoes, water actually seeps into the outer soles of my shoes/boots, until u can see the colour difference between dry and wet. and it takes dayssss to dry. i really don't want my shoes to spoil. so i just wear slippers to school everyday. comfortable also hah. i find it quite weird. the climate here is dry (as compared to Singapore which is sooo humid), yet whenever i sleep with wet hair, my hair doesnt dry by morning. and its quite irritating cos its damp and kind of out of shape. yah bad hair day for once. n i need a trim man. its growing too long. need to find a salon which doesnt charge such exorbitant fees for a mere trim. i walked past a salon not too long ago, i saw trim for ladies @ $80!!!! WTH...trim not cut you know. i think i will just end up cutting my hair twice a year whenever i go back to Sg...anyway i also hardly cut my hair...at most 3 or 4 times a year.
gonna collect my shoes tmr, saw this other pair of suede boots going on sale, its what ive been looking for but im having second thoughts abt it now cos its suede... and like i jus said, it rains alot. so if i wear anything suede and it rains...thats it man. i can say goodbye to it. so...im still thinking abt it...but maybe ill pass. if its gonna spoil (and its bound to cos it rains a lot) might as well dun buy n save money. its sooo hard to find a nice comfortable pair of brown boots.
i dunno y, but my classmates find it damn funny whenever someones hp rings in class. and the pple who always dont switch their hp to silent mode are either the HK, or the China pple. their ringtones are always some chinese song. i seriously dun see whats so funny abt it.
i cant wait to go back. i feel like eating so many things now. just thinking abt it is almost making me drool =D~ hahaha. and im craving for sushi. think will have it next week. nehs mum will be coming this friday, dunno where to bring her for dinner over the weekend...
watched dancing with the stars just now. YESSSSSS holly got voted out!!! don't really like her, although i have to agree that she danced damnnnnnnnn well today esp during the chacha. 1 of the judges gave her a 10! ian roberts is soooo gay (he is)...but hes so cute, not in the good looking way, its just the way he behaves. like a gentle giant. who cares if he cant dance for nuts. so its tom&kym and ian&nat left and its pretty obvious that tom&kym will win. tom is quite handsome hehehe. also watched the back to back double episode of CSI, i never fail to enjoy every episode. more about tv, i realise that advertisements here are pretty good. i especially like the yellow pages 1 about the wife calling up restaurants looking for her husband who has a distinctive hyena-like laugh...its really damn good. and the kraft cheese spread 1 also.
i suddenly feel damn hungry now. and i jus realise that i haven had instant noodles in like 2 months!?!? both good and bad. good because its bad for health, bad because how can i have not thought/craved for instant noodles in the past 2 months!?!?! now i really feel like having 1 packet...but its 1am im lazy to cook.
time to pack my bag, choose clothes for tmr and go to bed...annyonghi jumuship siyo..
Sunday, April 10, 2005
i have to start by saying that it suddenly feels cold in my room...my goosebumps are coming out and my hair is standing...weird. ok i dont wanna think abt it in another way...
had a good weekend, i loveee the military jacket i bought on friday im gonna wear it to sch tmr yay! also bought a couple more sweaters to prepare for winter. they were going pretty cheap anyway. and myer is having a 30% discount so i bought another top. didnt spend much though cos everything was on sale. so, quite satisfied with that. n i finally got my long awaited bag on saturday. i was sooooo happy that i carried it out the moment i layed my hands on it. overall, it was a good day. my afternoon was a little spoilt because the northern trains were not in service so i actually had to take an express bus to the next nearest station then take a train to the city. despite that, i really enjoyed my day out with neh. its been a long time since i felt that way. i guess i was just taking everything for granted, that i didnt really think abt how smooth n great everything has been between the 2 of us. of course there are occassional quarrels, but nahh...nothing serious. i can say everything has been blissful. i cooked dinner that night. made 4 dishes and potato salad for him to eat for the next few days. ill probably cook more on wednesday.
nehs mum will be coming this friday till the following sunday. i have sch so i wont be seeing her everyday. from my knowledge his mum n mine have been in touch. omg what is the world coming to? i mean, of course its good, but its so ODD!!!! i dont know... somehow i just feel really weird abt it. neh jokes abt this saying oh our parents are gonna be in-laws soon so its good that both our mums r getting along. n im just going no..no...no.... this is bad. hahaha. i told daph abt it quite long ago (cos this started right after my parents went back to Sg after "sending me off to sch here") even she said it was weird yet she couldnt explain why. and talking abt daph, we were on msn today, talking abt yet again the same topic, getting more n more excited. thats 1 of the things i really enjoy abt our friendship. same ol' topic, but theres always something new abt it, n we'll just go on & on & on. new bottles, old wine.
i wonder when is the poly graduation ceremony for my batch. i only know its in July. i received a call from EEE department about a month ago, the lady told me that i had been 1 of those selected to represent my course and give a speech during graduation day. i was pretty startled cos from my knowledge, usually the ones chosen would be those who did really well in poly. although i did pretty well in the last semester...2 ADs, i didnt think i would qualify because i really screwed up in yr 1 & 2? but anyway, the grad ceremony will be held in July and i won't be back in Sg so i juz told the lady that i was studying abroad and wouldn't be able to make it for the ceremony. its a pity though, cos its quite an honour and a rare chance. i told HZ abt it and she was like wahhh then she started telling sm and i think sm told wx and yeah word just got around until i even received a few smses from my polymates asking me abt it. like huh...wats with the big commotion. anyway, didnt manage to catch her on msn lately. the last time we chatted, she said she kinda missed me and i told her that was weird cos its not like we go out alot or something. but she said that it feels weird not having me around. i will def ask her out when im back.
i feel pretty slpy now despite waking up at 1pm today. my sleeping habits are turning bad lately. on days that i dont have to be up early the next morning, i would be surfing the net till almost 5am. time really flies when youre on the internet. theres so much to read, so much to learn.
omg it felt like 11:25 10mins ago...30mins have passed sooooooo quickly... time to slp. another new week to face tmr...!! nitenite
hope everyone back in Sg is fine!
Wednesday, April 06, 2005
remember the irritating Steven Lim guy aka as the eyebrow plucker always scouting for "customers" in town? yeah that damnnnn disgusting guy who tried to do a strip dance for the Singapore Idol auditions?
heres wat i found while browsing some forum...someone found this.
http://pigsgettofly.blogspot.com/2005/02/emotional-blackmail-campaign_24.html
wat an asshole...
Monday, April 04, 2005
IM SO IRRITATED AND TIRED!
my god. gimme a break. i left the house this morning at 8am and i only came home at 8pm. i went home straight after school, uncle peter picked me up from the train station. then he told me to follow them to council for the citizenship ceremony so that i could take pictures for them. so we went home to pick my aunt and the kids 1st, then my aunt was saying that i didnt have to go, but my uncle wanted me to go. so i was like its ok anyway it'll be only for awhile rite? but i wanted to have dinner first cos i was soooo freaking hungry. it took me 5mins to gobble up my dinner then we left. the thing lasted for about an hour, got home at 8:15. i heated up my supasupa, ate it and watched desperate housewives, followed by queer eye (i really liked todays ep!)
i was sooo sleepy towards the end of queer eye, the moment it ended i ran upstairs with the intention of washing up and going to bed, then my hp started beeping. my god my mum sent me like 3 smses just to tell me to go online. so when i did i was like yah wats so urgent? then she went on to tell me dat nehs mum told my mum that neh doesnt noe how and where to buy rice. i was like wat? u gotta be kidding me. then she just went on and on asking me if i cooked for him over the weekend, did i cook or even buy rice blahblahblah. like WTH. im getting bombarded by all these questions? just nice neh called so i told him wat his mum told my mum n he was like nooo...since when. he even can tell me rice is either long grain or short grain. voila! hes doing fine. so im like why the hell specially sms me as if its something so urgent when its just about rice? n this neh is also damn funny. he doesnt tell his mum anything anymore cos he doesnt want her to worry, yet he tells his sister everything. doesnt he know that watever he tells his sis she will tell his mum? n worse still when pple tell other pple stories, the story will also blow out of proportion?
that last sentence suddenly reminded me of an incident when we were back in sec sch. i rem our group was punished by mag low for something, and we were all asked to stand outside the class along the stone benches, facing the hdb flats. instead of feeling remorseful (as usual), we were playing broken telephone. i obviously cant rem wat the message was, but i know for sure that the message ended up really nonsensical and nothing like what the 1st person had conveyed. haha!!!
k im really tired now thats why im behaving like crankenstein. and i really look like 1 from having only 4hours of sleep last night, i was tossing around in bed cos it felt so hot even though the aircon was on.
arghhhhhhh i have another freaking long day tmr, and lab test 1st thing in the morning. i really need some sleep.
monday blues
i really really hate mondays. everyone is always rushing to finish the math assignment. couldnt slp last night, i was nodding off too sleep during Computer Architecture, my eye lids felt so heavy, was struggling to keep my eyes open. finally finished the math assignment. everyone was copying from johnny, this really smart HK guy. oooh, n hes quite good looking hehe...hes damn fair, comparable to me and his cheek are soooo rosy!!! very boyish face.
its cold and wet today, when i got up it didnt feel that cold, so i stupidly didnt bring a jacket out. although im wearing long sleeves, i was practically shivering when i was walking to school from central station. im so sleepy now i feel like skipping my next lesson and go home early. a veryvery tempting thought...but nah...i shant be a bad girl.
hmm...a quite cute guy just walked across the room. he looks familiar... damn why do i keep looking at cute guys hahaha neh will so kill me...but he doesnt know i have this new blog though hahaha.
im so hungry now, i think the 2 people sitting beside my left and right can almost hear my stomach haha. will have my krispy kremes for lunch. the 2 perth-ians jealous yet??? if u really like, i can send u an e-version of krispy kreme donuts to you hehehe..... ok im delirious with hunger until im talking nonsense now hahahaha....i smell the donuts calling me. you know what? initially when i first ate them i didnt think they were very fantastic. just okay. but its got me hooked now. i ate 4 donuts at 1 go when i bought them last week.
half of my monday has already passed...GOOD. cant wait to get by tues then after that, the rest of the week is damn relax. its quite good that way actually, to cram everything in 2 days rather than have everything spread out. haaaaa....time flies... its already the 1st week of april. thank goodness, or else for march i would have overspent like helllllll. ive been shopping non stop ever since i came here. but i keep within my budget. which is like $200 less than my given allowance. that way i can save $ without missing out on shopping.
my god...i nearly got a heart attack. my friend was sitting beside me for some time and i didnt even realise until i juz turned. both of us were quite startled...hahaha funny moment.
cant wait to go home and have supasupa again!!! still have 3 bowls in the fridge!!!
Sunday, April 03, 2005
bloated...
my god im so full. had so much to eat today. had supasupa (the soup with the nice fluffy pastry covering the bowl), had home-made noodles with braised chicken & mushrooms and avocado and jackfruit dessert. my aunt is a really good cook. i think i might grow fat soon hah! i still cant stop munching on sweets and chocolate, neh bought me a huge pack of m&m peanut the other day, i also bought a huge cup of gummi bears..i just cant stop eating sweets. i know its really bad! my tummy is so bloated that it hurts.
did quite a lot today, woke up at 1 (geez), did some chores, washed my clothes, vacuumed my room, changed the sheets and did my homework. i really hate math, theres an assignment due every 2 weeks; im juz really bad at math. aside from that, im doing pretty well in other subjects, getting full marks for everything. i hope ill juz make it through for math.
daph is having chicken pox. havent heard from her for days, didnt reply my smses either.. i hope shes getting better. have some news she'll definitely be excited to know.
hmm...just clicked my msn main window. suddenly thought of someone...