Tuesday, April 26, 2005

I was just calculating my expenses for this month. Shitttt!!! I overspent for this month in just 1 week. Im still within my given allowance, but over my own limit. So no $200 savings for this month... I was actually gonna buy my boots on Friday. I finally decided between the 2 i had in mind, but when i went to David Jones to get them they weren't on sale anymore!!! Grrr.....Good thing though, cos if i got them i wouln't have eyed the beautiful pair of jeans and got them on Saturday. Im dying for this month to pass cos i still have 2 items on lay-by which im going to pay off and collect by early next month. And Neh's birthday is coming, have to go get his present. Thank god i already know what to get or else i will be in a dilemma again. Haa....shopping always makes me happy. At least it keeps me from being irate for now.
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Back to the previous issue, i just dont understand why a simple message or set of instructions has to go through internationally and eventually end with me. She knows her son is a procrastinator (thanx yun for bringing the word up) and she definitely knows he is totally clueless about housework and everything else so whyyyyyyyyyyyyyy i repeat whyyyyyyyyyy can't she call him and just check on him now and then? moreover its not like its gonna cost her more on telephone bills becos they do call him every few days or at least once a week now. what i mean is, instead of just asking how are you why not go straight to the problem instead of going through mediums.

Im totally not pissed or irritated with him for being such a baby. Im really ok with it i don't expect him to know everything (or anything) about housework. And im fine with doing all these things for him. But at least spare me with the complaints when she simply could have told him what should have been done because i have done it a gazillion times and i don't need other pple to remind me that I should do something about it. I have done my part.

Even Neh thinks that my mum treats him like "the son she never had", i second that, in comparison to how his mum prepared him before he left. Seriously, she really has the let-him-fend-for-himself attitude towards Neh. I even recall her telling me that. And Neh also doesnt mention his needs or difficulties to his parents. There was once, he actually wanted to borrow money from me because he needed to pay the 6month bond for the apt and still needed to set aside some for the houseware and stuff. And im like, huh why don't you just ask your parents to send you more. because initially he didnt have the intention of moving so soon so they didnt send him that big an amount so that he could move anytime. he just refused to ask his parents because he said he just didnt like asking for money and just wanted to borrow from me and would return it to me when he receives the next lump sum in 2 months. Seriously, that EGO. Its just plainnnnnn ego that he doesnt want to ask for money from his parents even though its for the apartment and neccessities. I just didnt like the fact that he diedie also won't ask from his parents. On that point, I feel that is not being very fair to me because hey even though he would return me the money upon receiving the next sum, its not as if my money is spare cash. I have to live on that too. Honestly i have absolutely no qualms about lending him money. But we're talking ego now. Any advice or comments on this issue would be gladly appreciated.

Anyway, its so funny how the actions and reactions of both of them just eventually end up with me. Like HELLO!?!?!? Why am i tying up all the loose ends??

It can get really frustrating after sometime. I know im his gf and i should help him. I practically do everything for him, but point is, there is that 5% where i can't do everything for him, so as a parent she should step in and help in or at least nag or remind him whenever she calls, instead of telling my mum!!!!!!!!!

Now im beginning to resent the fact that our mums know each other.

tw|nKled by t|aRa on 2:18 AM