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Saturday, May 21, 2005
this is damn funny.
an msn convo with my mum:
Mami says:
why your name now "addicted"? What are you addicted to?
addicted says:
addicted to internet
damn it, yun just reminded me that i shud have said Ski, and in the 1st place THATS the reason i change my nick to addicted. DAmn funny my mum, she probably thought i was on shit or something hahahahahaha.
I was just reading yesterday's post, and i suddenly thought, shit! Why was i so stupid? I should have went to the toilet cos the toilet is just beside the lift, that would have mislead him. I also should have taken a bus to Town Hall and took the train from there instead of taking the usual route. Anyway, its over, but it was just a thought. He came to school today to hand in the report draft too, he saw me, lifted his brows at me, i just looked at him but didnt say hi. Good. It should stay that way.
Managed to make a quick trip to town today. Bought a MNG top. Also finally settled for black boots, i was looking for brown all this while and couldn't find any nice ones, and i totally didnt consider black cos i already have 1 mid calf pair. These boots were kind of a hasty decision, but they were really nice and were going for a pretty reasonable price so i just got them.
My hands are cold, im tired, yawning, and feeling kind of greedy but my body is telling me not to get out of my seat. Won't be going out tomorrow, have to study, Neh will meet me at the Westfields at my place then we'll just have a quick dinner at the cafe. I heard the pies at that cafe are suppose to be good. Talking about pies, i really miss the chicken & mushroom pie from Pi. Its soooo good, but they only have 1 shop which is located at Nehs old place, near his school. Damn, those were reallllllly good. I just remembered that i have yet to buy dog treats for Tori and Whiskas for Tomtom, have to get them tomorrow otherwise i really have no time cos i won't be free until my exams end next week. Even then, i only have half a day to pack and buy everything before i fly back the next morning. I have quite a few things i need to bring back.
List of stuff to bring back to Sg
1. Pet food
2. M&Ms White Choc for Daph & Sis
3. Daph's stuff
4. Some of my heels (4 inchers are practically useless for me here)
5. Scarves for Neh's sisters
6. 4 dozen KK for the girls (YES!! im bringing KK for u girls!) & everyone else but sadly none for myself =( haha
7. Jeans & pants which i bought here that require alteration. alteration costs $15 here wth...
8. extra bedsheets which my mum made me bring here. i don't intend to move out from my uncle's so i dun need bed linen anymore.
& a few other stuff which i can't think of right now. i also have quite a few stuff to bring back to Sydney
1. More winter clothes & 3 more pairs of jeans
2. The remaining shoes
3. All the stuff i bought in Sg while i was in Sydney
4. Sour tapes which i can't live without
5. A few books
6. Toiletries (make-up etc)
7. Stationary (i never used so much liquid paper until now)
and, girls, u want anything? choc? bloom cosmetics or anything? just tag me n let me know k.
Friday, May 20, 2005
Traumatized
Yesterday, i tried to escape from the korean guy. Lecture ended, i was chatting with my friends for a few minutes. During lecture, everytime the back door opened, i always turned around to see if it was him, but he didnt come for lecture. Next thing i knew, he was there after lecture. He came SPECIALLY for me. He was chatting with the other guys and when i saw him i IMMEDIATELY left. I decided to take the lift so he wouldn't be able follow me. When i left the building i walked as fast as i could, quick small steps. I just kept walking, and i turned back a few times to see if he "found" me and caught up with me. I reached the main traffic light safely. I was waiting to cross, turned back once, phew, he wasn't there. I was a bit relieved then. Then i turned back another time. SHIT!!!! There he was!!!!!! He actually came after me! Damn it! He saw me look at him. There was no way i could hide. Then he stood beside me and asked where i was going, i said i was rushing back. He asked why, i just lied and said it was a family emergency. He asked if i was going home, i said no. Then he asked again, what was it about, bf or what i just said something happened at home. i felt soooo uncomfortable cos shit ass, i almost got away, but i didnt!!! then he commented that it was so difficult to take a photo of me, so i repeated myself again with the same excuse saying exams is just next week and i really need to study. he said again, it'll probably take only 2hrs. i said i really had no time because after exams i will be flying back str8 away and will only return 3weeks later. besides 2hrs is not very short, i can do plenty with 2hrs instead of wasting my time with him. he asked for my number, i paused for a moment then i reluctantly give it to him. i mean, he asked, how am i suppose to refuse? after that, almost reaching the train station i said very straight forwardly, "why don't u go look for someone else" he just said he's always looking. but if he is i dun see why he still continues to pester me. before we parted ways he asked me to call him if i was free, then he realised i didnt have his number, and i just said nvm u can miss call me or something.
that was probably the most traumatizing experience for me. i mean, dammit why do i have to keep avoiding him and "live in fear". in the 1st place i never said OK to him, everything was see how, or just no answer. somehow he assumed that i was willing thats y im in this awkward situation now. the numerous times i always gave hints by using sch work and exams as excuses that i wasn't free. i think its pretty obvious isn't it? but he just doesnt get it!!! and if i were to tell him straight that in the 1st place i was never interested and i NEVER consented, i think it would be very harsh?
im just stuck now, i dread seeing him in school. Helpppppppp
Tuesday, May 17, 2005
omg just shoot me nowww....right nowwww. juz did my visual basic lab exam. i feel like killing myself!!!! my whole thing couldnt work cos it couldnt read the data text file. and what was the error? just missed the word "Not" and didnt erase 1 of the arrays....OMG!!! i think im gonna fail becos it couldnt read the file!!! im so freaking out right now. if the thing could read everything would have been PERFECT!!! a perfect score!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
maths quiz later, i BETTER do ok otherwise damn it. tuesday is screwed up!!!
its so freaking cold today and rainy...the aircon was at 18degrees when we were having the test, i was so stressed out and the aircon was so cold that i was shaking.
*sighs*
Monday, May 16, 2005
Hooray!
Hooray for the hard work that has paid off well. Despite severely lacking concentration over the weekend (i absolutely could not even write out a 250 word report abstract on Sat night) due to the many distractions *ahem*, i finally completed the draft report and the abstract on Sunday night. Scored full marks for the abstract too which leaves me 5 marks away from a high distinction for the overall score of the whole unit despite lacking another 20 marks which has yet to be assessed. Really happy with my performance so far.
Finally got through today, it was such a hectic day, math assignment as usual, but class ended early so it wasn't too bad. Been pigging out like crazy every night while doing my work, Wanwan Xue Bing, chips, my current fav Ski smoothie bar, snickers, pizza squares and chicken in a biskit. I know i know, all junk food and full of MSG *laughs* but its very convenient especially when you're up in the wee hours. Now i understand why Yun says KKs are a good midnight or rather wee-hours snack. Theres plenty of food for me in the fridge downstairs and in the walk-in food cupboard, but im too lazy to walk down. So the snacks are really convenient, especially when i keep them in the "goodies drawer" on my right. Its sooooo accessible. Talking about all this food is making me hungry now kekekeke.
This is what ive been addicted to the past week or so. Yun go get it in this flavour!
I don't feel like finalizing my report now. I still have 2 sections to write. Im actually writing a report about the psychology and characteristics of virus writers. The prescribed text of which is compulsory to include in my references, is sooooooooooo interesting. Theres this idea of how viruses were created and spread using the concept of real biological bacteria and evolution, about viruses using genes when making new variants or mutation u may call. In the future, viruses will even procreate; having male and female viruses that will be able to mate and have offspring.
Now. How cool is that?
Saturday, May 14, 2005
I keep on getting weird encounters with pple in school...this week's encounter was wayyyyy off. i was a bit freaked out. i don't think ill reveal the details here.
and im seriously addicted to the Ski smoothie bars. i finished 2 boxes in 3 days earlier this week. then i bought 3 boxes yesterdat ate 4 bars at 1 go...they smell sooooo nice and taste berrylicious!
i bought a pleated tweed skirt from DJ yesterday, and 3 knitted scarves, 2 from the kids dept cos they were dirt cheap and really cute! 1 of them has pompoms at the end!!! also put 2 sweaters on lay-by few days ago, cos i couldnt decide which colour to buy, i spent almost 1 hour circling the 4th floor of Myer holding both colours, trying to decide which to get.
went shopping with neh today, this time, for his stuff. bought 5 pieces of clothing. felt so satisfied cos its usually so difficult to psycho him to buy something. then had KFC for dinner today cos Neh was craving for it. he never tried it ever since he came to sydney. we ordered the new hot and crispy chicken. the last time i had KFC i was so disappointed cos they didnt have crispy and the wicked wings were inedible!! at least the hot and crispy is reallllyyyy close to the crispy chicken we have in Singapore. the whipped potato is not as fantastic though. and i really miss Macca's ice lemon tea. cravingggg for that. the weather is getting really cold. it was so cold on monday, 8 degrees, i could even "see" my breath as i exhaled. my hands, nose, and cheeks were so cold they felt numb. before coming here, i thought gloves were a little OTT for australia, but i think otherwise now. oddly, my skin isn't really dry as compared to the last time i came to australia, my lips aren't chapped either. i never needed lip gloss here. realllyyyy weird.
im so dead. i have 1 math assignment, 1 summary and draft report due monday, VB prac exam, math quiz and project presentation on tues, friday final report due, then monday is the start of the real nightmare. then 2 weeks from now, Hello Singapore!!! yippeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee i know i sound mad, but i think i should start packing my luggage cos i have a few things that i wanna bring back, and i might just forget. besides im flying the morning after my last paper so i have less than 24hrs to pack. a bit rush so im gonna start early and take it slow. plus i am bringing back abt 4 boxes of KK (if possible though)
my dear yun, tell mr g to keep his stomach empty for his KK this fri/sat hahaha. if its mailed out on thurs evening, hopefully it'll reach u by friday.
ok stop rambling, i better get back to work otherwise i have to forfeit my already deprived sleep.
Thursday, May 12, 2005
Why do humans eat forbidden fruit knowing it is forbidden? Why do humans yearn for things they cannot have?
The mind is strong, but the flesh is weak
Sunday, May 08, 2005
It was a greatttt weekend! Aunt Emilia & family are over in Sydney for a holiday and staying at our place. They arrived on Saturday morning around 830. I was awoken by the huge ruckus. Allegra & Marcia were screaming and jumping about, it was so noisy that i had to get up even though i slept really late on Friday night. Met Neh in the afternoon, walked around a bit in town, went to check out some stuff which i plan to get year end. We went home at about 4, spent some quality time, then both of us fell asleep. I don't usually take naps or fall asleep but i was really sleepy. The last i remember before we fell asleep was when we were talking about...ok now i forgot. Anyway, i think i woke up after 10mins, saw that Neh was asleep too so i went back to sleep. I kept waking up every few minutes to see if he was really asleep or just pretending to sleep so as not to wake me up, but realised that he was really asleep so i went back to sleep. Woke up about half an hour later, when i opened my eyes, he woke up too. Somehow, i felt very blissful at that moment. After waking up, we started chatting and talking about the past when we were a lot younger, then he started to tell me about his army life and mentioned a creepy ghostly encounter when he first entered army. We just kept chatting and forgot the time, it was almost 8 when we realised and it was time for dinner. Its been so long since we had such nice chats, felt like the getting-to-know-more-about-you-moments before we got together.
Today, i stayed home while everyone went to Tarongga Zoo. I didn't wanna go cos i had tons of work to do, and exams are coming. Then in the evening we went to Central for dinner. Ate so much that my jeans felt like they were about to burst. I really enjoyed dinner, Aunt Emilia commented that Allegra looks soooo much like me, and i added that she was the mirror image of me when she was abt 1yr old; the true blue Lazaro look. On the contrary, Amadea looks like her mum, and Marcia looks like her dad. Despite hardly meeting up with all my aunts and uncles because everyone lives in different parts of the world, i could feel the closeness. Its been a long time since we had such family dinners, and i really enjoyed todays.
I cant help but tear as i type, today is also the first Mothers Day that im away from home. I sent my mum an sms this afternoon to wish her. I imagine all the kids celebrating Mothers Day together with their mums, while my mum's only child/daughter is not around to celebrate it for her...I just wish i could teleport home right now.
These 3 weeks are going to be really busy. I have 3 tests this week, 1 project and 1 essay to hand up next week. The following week, exams start. I can't wait to get through everything and come home!
If i never knew you, i'd have lived my whole life through
empty as the sky, never knowing why
lost forever, if i never knew you
Wednesday, May 04, 2005
September
Feeling as chirpy as this song now, Earth Wind & Fire - September. This song never fails to make me feel energetic and chirpy. It gives me such a "Summer" feeling. I got hooked to this song after watching Dancing With The Stars, when Holly & Mark danced to this song.
The weekend was really weird...so many weird things happening. Gonna be a DAMN busy month. Have loads of work to do and exams coming. I can't wait to go back to Sg. Already made the neccessary preparations. i will be back for 19days!!! I even feel like packing even though im going back in abt 1 months time hehehe
Ba De Ya...Dancing in September
Sunday, May 01, 2005
haiz...i miss someone...