Sunday, October 23, 2005

Sorry guys, i know i have disappeared for awhile since i came back. Didnt feel like coming online. And the photos, i forgot to bring back my DCC hub so i had to wait for my dad to mail it to me before i could upload the photos.

Tmr is the start of another sch week, i have completely no mood to study and get back into the books. I keep thinking of the holidays and coming back again in Dec. 7 more weeks to go....oh god i really dread school. Ive already started counting down to the number of weeks and have also been thinking about how to celebrate Xmas & New Yr. Thought of planning something, but Yun said she's not gonna be ard, girl!!! Why do you always have to go to back to Perth and miss all the events!?!?

Recently i have been feeling very contented with my life, i love Neh soooo much. I often wonder what would i be doing, how would my life turn out if Neh and i didnt get together. Would i still be stuck in my previous dead-end relationship? Would i have came to Sydney? And what if i had left right after my Os? Would i have met Neh?

I had a conversation with Daph about marriage. When i came back, i heard that so many of our ex schmates are already settling down or have already settled down ie getting married or already married with kids. It scares me to be unsure if i am with the right person now. What struck me was that, how do you even know if he is the right one? And what if he was mr right but you didnt know and let him go? These things happen only once in a lifetime and since it will only be ONCE how do you know what the feeling is like when it comes? To start a new relationship again at this age would mean it would take away another few years and what if again he wasn't the right one? I would have wasted more time, and if so i will probably end up getting married in my late 20s. Worse case scenario, what if im too picky and i am up getting left on the shelf? Im really afraid, of the things i cannot see. If only i could gaze into a crystal ball and see my future.

The future is so unpredictable. Many processes and phases in life may be uncontrollable, but right now, 1 thing i know for sure, i feel safe, protected and loved in his arms.

well, here are the pictures from Jamie's birthday perty.

tw|nKled by t|aRa on 9:09 PM