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Wednesday, August 31, 2005
i just wanna complain now!!!!!!!!!!!
i have tonsssss of work to complete this week and next. And the following, its exams!!!
i hope these few weeks get by quickly.....
Wednesday, August 24, 2005
Cold
Isn't it suppose to be spring now? Or is it still winter? The average temperature is higher than that of winter, but damn its still so cold! Its been really sunny & windy the past week, the wind is freezingggg....Still have to wear winter clothing. Yun misses the cold, i miss the warm feeling of summer. Haha.
Update of the weekend. I SPRAINED MY ANKLE ON FRIDAY!!!!!! Neh & i went to watch the Skeleton Key, the movie was at 7 & we bought tickets around 710 so we were a few minutes late. When we stepped into the cinema, the show had started & there were hardly any seats behind. Neh walked damnnnn fast to the front leaving me behind to find my way around in the dark. There were metal thingys along the edges of every step, I wore heels that day, then my god, i tripped on the metal edges n fell flat on my bum!!! N my ankle hurt like hell cos when i fell my ankle kind of twisted. I was in pain. Stupid Neh, all he cared about was to hurry n get seats so he wont miss the beginning part of the show cos he hates missing it. Before i fell, i called him to ask him to like "fu" me cos it was sooo freaking dark i couldnt see the steps, but he didnt hear. After i fell, i called him again he didnt hear me again. So i was quite irritated after that. My ankle really hurt cos i couldnt bend foot at all, so i was limping all the way home. On Sat i went for a foot massage. Bloody hell, cost me $70 for 1 hr!!! But ok la...it was worth it cos on Sunday my foot was almost healed, & today it is perfectly normal.
Ohhh...& i finally got to have pancakes on Saturday. We met De & Vicki for dinner, had Italian first cos the queue for pancakes was freaking long. Then we had pancakes for dessert after that. Craving to have Bonbon Rocher ice cream, but sadly, when i wanted it on Saturday they didnt have that flavour anymore.
Work is continuing to pile up, but thankfully it will be over soon. On a happy note, ive got a lot of things to bring back for my mum, feel so happy that i bought her freaking a lot of things this time. The best part is that we can share haha. & also i will be buying my bag when i go back yay!!! I feel so satisfied that i can save so much $ in such a short time even though im still spending. *laughs* Every time i step into the store, Mavis the sales girl who knows me cos i go there at least 3 times a week, says are you gonna buy something again? You're crazy, you shop & shop, but you need to save some money too you know. That girl is damn funny. She said to me, why don't you work here cos we need people like you to encourage other people to spend like you. I laughed & told her i will consider when i finish with the paper work. The last time 2 times i went there, i didnt buy anything, but chat with Mavis for about 20minutes then i just browsed through the clothes. The girls at Wanted are pretty familiar with me too. Its bad, i admit, but things in Sydney are just wayyy nicer than they are in Singapore in terms of quality, style (except price) & they are also limited so you would hardly find someone wearing the same thing.
Its 3am & im wide awake, had only 4 hours of sleep last night, couldnt really sleep well. i was super tired by 4pm but i had 2 naps today, one on the way home, two, a 2hour nap after dinner from 9-11pm hahaha. So i feel really energetic now. School's at 1.30 tmr, gonna wake up earlier to wash my hair 1st, its too cold to wash hair at night even with the heater in the toilet on. I think ill have some potato chips before i go to bed =)
Thursday, August 18, 2005
If only smilies could show how sad i am
Boohoo.....!!!!!!!! If blogger could post smilies i would post a thousand crying faces to show how disappointed i am now! I got my exam timetable 2 days ago, 1st paper is on the 12th of Sept, last paper on the 20th and a total of 5 papers to sit for. Before that i have a UNIX shell program due 23rd Aug (next Tues), 2000 word social responsiblity essay due 30th Aug, collaborative systems project due 5th Sept, Statistics assignment due 9th Sept and weekly assignments to hand in. OMG... im so going to die.
*sobs* I know Jem & Gwen are coming to Perth, i soooo badly wanna come up to Perth to see u guys but arggghhhh so much work and exams coming! Rin also asked Neh & I to go skiing with her & Leon, Nat & Ben, & Vicki on the 2nd, sadly i have to turn down both trips. Neither can i split myself into 3 to be able to accomplish all 3 things although i so badly want to. Maybe i can force my soul out of my body hahahaha ok that sounds creepy.
Vicki is up in Sydney now, will probably meet her this weekend, then she will be heading to Brissy then Melbourne to meet Rin & go to go skiing.... *sighsigh* What a bad time for all the very very tempting holiday offers.
Just finished drawing my rich picture for my part of the collaborative systems project. This project is quite fun actually. School has been a lot better this semester, everyone in class is like very "shou" with each other, everybody is able to mix with one another despite all the different races that exist in my cohort. Its nice that everyone is genuinely friendly.
Anybody watched Ozzie Idol? OMG i loveeeee Chris Luder's voice, not this week though, he was DAMN good during the semi-finals when i heard his voice i felt like i was melting. & he has really nice eyes.
Another favourite song, Micheal Buble - Home.
Monday, August 15, 2005
Im so freaking pissed n disappointed now. 1stly, the gucci bag i want is actually more expensive in Sg than in Oz, & they dont have it in the colour i want. So i have to get it here instead, for slightly more expensive than i expected the Sg price to be. But nvm, since Sg doesnt have the colour i want, at least i can still buy it here.
Then, Neh gives me 1 big long lecture about how my bags are more important than my studies just because i make a big hoo-ha out of it. Like hello!?!? Making a big hoo-ha out of it is just for that moment while im just rambling. Then again, it wasn't a big hoo-ha, all i said what its more exp in Sg & how can it be cos everything else is more exp here, so maybe the price they gave me wasn't including the GST, but after calculation, after GST, its still cheaper here. Thats it. & just because i ramble about it and complain you classify that as my bags being more important than my studies? That is your interpretation of my priorities? So does that mean to say that if i ramble and complain about my studies means ohhhh my studies r sooooo important to me? PLS, you are being too simple minded. Not that it is a complicated thing, but hello!?!? In other words if i ask somebody to go eat shit & die means i literally want the person to do so? Gimme a break man. Like that means i cant say shit, or damn it, or u ass, or even oh my god? HAHAHA. Friends, don't mind my sarcasm...
There is only 1 thing to be happy about today. But no point talking about it because Neh will say other things are more important than my studies because i talk about everything and anything else BUT studies. Hah.
Best. Silence is golden. Ill keep my mouth shut, so nobody can judge what my priorities are based on what i talk about.
Hah again...what is the title of my blog?
Sunday, August 14, 2005
Had home made pizza for lunch today. It was YUMMMM............ *slurps* Had another ok week, made it through all the tedious tasks, im losing focus, dreading every day of school. Have thought about things in the long term and i have made a decision. Im always so fickle, but i hope this time its final.
I was packing my room today, found a few movie tickets lying around on the table and in my bag. I took out my diary to put the tickets into the pocket slot of my diary. It has been awhile since i read my diary, i flipped through the first few pages, silly memories were flooding back into my head. Then i came to a part where i felt like tearing a whole chapter out of the diary. Reading it, i felt a tremendous ache in my heart, as though the scars have not healed and hurt upon touch. However, i did not tear it out. I told myself, it is an important chapter of my life that i can look back on to remind myself never to take the same path. If i were to read it again, i will not let it affect me, but only serve as a reminder. So i decided not to tear it out (don't wanna spoil my diary either), closed it and kept it back in its secret place.
Collected my shirt and cardigan yesterday, am also planning on buying that pretty brown blazer tomorrow. Ive got so many things in mind to buy, Neh is numb these days when i ask him for his opinion on whether something is nice, the worst is when i ask him if i should buy it *laughs*. Previously, he would tell me "its up to u, its quite nice, if u really like it, buy it" These days, his reaction is "don't buy lah" no matter what i say. Hahaha. He's so patient with me, he knows my shopping habits better than anyone else. And he's f***ing sweet to me. I remember the last time i went back to Sg which was in June, we quarrelled the day before i left. We hardly spoke those few days cos i really didnt wanna speak to him and start another quarrel. The first weekend apart, he went to the city and he actually bought me the shirt i was eyeing, even though we were still in the "cool off" period. Its so sweet of him. Just last week, i was on my way home on the train, there was this young lady, she sat opposite me, and she was smiling to herself every now and then. She's not crazy, but i just wondered what she was thinking of, maybe she was thinking of happy thoughts which made her smile. I started thinking back on how Neh and i started going out. I remember 1 of our dinner dates, we were at IndoChine (before it moved to Wisma), i cant remember what we were talking about, but he was saying his hands were really rough after all that training and etc in the army and he told me to feel his palms. Thinking back, i felt like laughing cos, damn, was he flirting with me that moment or really meant nothing about feeling his palms? I remember another part about that same day. We went to town first before dinner, i told him i needed to meet Daph to pass her something. Daph and i were suppose to meet at A|X at Taka, then Neh asked me what was it that i needed to give her, i stupidly told him oh, damn i forgot to bring it, but i will still meet her to say hi. Haha he saw through the act. He knew that my only motive was to let Daph see how he looked. Hahahaha Neh only told me about this a few weeks ago. I feel like laughing, in fact i am laughing to myself now hahaha. 2yrs...it sure doesnt feel like it at all.
I love Barry Manilow's voice and his songs!
Friday, August 12, 2005
This is funny...hahaha from The New Paper
JUNIOR asks his dad: 'Daddy, how was I born?'
His dad sighs and replies: 'Ah, my son, I guess one day, you would have to find out anyway.
'Well, you see, your mum and I first got together in a chat room on MSN.
'Then I set up a date via e-mail with your mum and we met at a cyber-cafe.
'We sneaked into a secluded room, where your mother agreed to a download from my hard drive.
'As soon as I was ready to upload, we discovered that neither of us had used a firewall, but it was too late to hit the delete button.
'Six weeks later, your mum sent me an instant message saying that her operating system was showing signs of unauthorised program activity from a self-extracting file, which had implanted itself in her BIOS.
'Then nine months later, a little pop-up appeared and said: 'You've Got Male!' '
Wednesday, August 10, 2005
Im so frigging pisseddddddddddddddddddddd now!!! And that is an understatement cos i dont think any word can describe how pissed i am. AAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
haha i like Neh in specs!
lastly my infamous cheeky grin, & a very yummy cookie with pink icing & colourful sprinkles
projects-homework-essays-assignments-exams
*sigh* Just when i thought i could sit back a little and relax this week, work is piling again. I totally didnt know that another part of our on-going systems project is due for marking this FRIDAY. & we only got together to discuss it today, we allocated tasks to each member today, and we are trying to finish it asap or by thurs to consolidate everything into 1 document. shit asss....
i also had a really big "heart attack" this morning, got my Culture report back, my marking sheet was blank, & on my report was a note saying "Your paper is quite extraordinary. Please book and appointment to come and see me." My face turned pale, i thought i did it completely wrong, cos i didnt really put much effort into it and i kept changing my structure initially because i wasn't very organized with the flow of my ideas. I did exceptionally well, thats why she wanted to see me cos she said she wanted to have a copy of it to distribute to the other lecturers who are handling this report question too. Thank god i did well for this paper cos it has a 50% weightage for this module for this sem.... PHEW. It was also quite a bad day cos i forgot to bring my mobile & i didnt wear a watch so i had to keep on asking my friends what time it was, & i couldnt call Neh to tell him how nervous i was about the outcome of my report, all my classmates were coming to me & asking me what happened. When i got home, 1st thing i did was call Neh. Then i smsed Jeremy to tell him what happened cos he kept telling me don't worry your report is pretty good it cant be that bad.... He kind of made a bet with me, so haha i had to at least tell him the outcome of his bet right? He was damn right LOL. Oh well, so much for today.
Ive been feeling quite lethargic these few days, maybe its because of the weather. Ive been up late the past few nights doing research and stuff for my essay & other upcoming assignments, i feel like a zombie everyday. Time passes so fast when im online, a few clicks away, its already 3am and i have to get up at 7. Yet every Tuesday, Jeremy always says i look fresh. The weather has been quite shitty, hot & cold, hot & cold, when i leave the house at 8, its freaking cold that after deciding to wear open toed shoes, i have to change to boots. & ive been wearing boots the past few days that my damn ass classmate Eric said how come i always dress like im going horse-riding? LOL i was like horse-riding? wtf? ok maybe cos i wear a blazer, & skinny jeans tucked into my boots. but horse-riding? how the hell did he think of that? but hey, come to think of it, ive always wanted to go horse-riding, but nobody wants to go with me cos its too expensiveeee!!!!
Neh got his results last night, he did well, so it means hes gonna get his car soon cos this ass doesnt wanna ask to get his car just a bit earlier cos he had planned to get it by next yr. Hahaha....im gonna psycho him to get that car *evil laugh* Sian...workworkworkwork. Huge ongoing project, keep on having to meet Johnny & the other team members to discuss. Seriously, Philip & i always say Johnny is not human, for example, a normal person would spend on average 1 hour on a particular assignment, but Johnny would spend about 6 hours on it. On top of completing the assignment with FULL marks, he would proof-read every single point, to make sure nothing is left out, his work is all CRYSTAL CLEAR he really does more than what is expected. Philip & i just shook our heads and mumbled pei fu......which is why i made him my role model. The shocking thing is that hes freaking 29yrs old when he looks not more than 25, he has a reallly boyish face, very fair & has damn rosy cheeks. Philip mentioned that he had 5yrs of work experience, so that sums up why he's so meticulous with everything, and he always has a clear idea of what is expected because he has the experience in the "real world". Again, i salute him.
Been listening to this song for days. My current favourite song.
Tina Arena - Chains
Friday, August 05, 2005
Hey girls...when i come back, i really need to talk to all of you about a serious issue. I think most of us will actually encounter this issue or at least have some brush with this. Just remind me k. Its important cos i need some opinions and its easy for all of us to talk abt it because we have the same basic beliefs.
Counting down...
Wednesday, August 03, 2005
photo whoring
i love my pink doggy PJs!!!
sorry ah i know the pictures are damn big...i already resized them but they're still huge. lazy to resize again.
Tuesday, August 02, 2005
I have a new role model. Johnny Cheng Yin Lung.
I Crystal Natalia Lazaro, pledge to try my best to accomplish all tasks with effort, i will try my best to wake up at 7 to attend hypnotist-cum-lecturer Mr James Hu's Unix lectures on Wednesday mornings, irregardless of how sleepy he makes everyone, how he laughs at his own jokes and coming to a class of only 5-10/40+ students. I will try my best to concentrate on my work at home and not spend more time online than on my work. I will also try to visit the library to borrow useful books for my subjects (i haven't been to the library before). I will stop shopping in school and even during classes and concentrate in class and jot down important points.
Monday, August 01, 2005
Backache
I feel like an old woman. My back is aching like crazy! I guess ive been spending too much time on the computer today. On top of that, ive been snacking like crazy too. Its the weather...it really is the weather. After eating so much, my stomach feels so bloated yet i still have the urge to eat somemore. I think ill have the last piece of TimTams now before i sleep.
The weekend was ok...finally got past 2 obstacles what a relief. Went for the Sexpo on Saturday too. It was a huge disappointment! The 2 event halls were just filled with stalls selling skimpy lingerie & sex toys. There were some stage performances though, but it was just ok. What a waste of our money. Plus, they kept our tickets at the entrance so we couldnt keep it. I usually keep the tickets of special events & put them in our photo album. Oh well.
Im so dreading this semester...Cant wait for it to end. On sunday nights, i dread going to sch the day, all i look forward to is fridays and the weekends. *sigh* I hope i can quickly move out. Just hope everything goes as planned for now. *sigh again* Another week of school again. Sian is the word. Cant wait for this friday.
Feeling really really sian now.