Wednesday, August 23, 2006

I have nothing to say to you. You ask me what if this, what if that, you always beat around the bush when you want to ask me something, never straight to the point and always trapping me. You ask me for my opinions, i tell you what i feel from the bottom of my heart. In return, you question my opinions and rebut me. And you even reason that by saying that by rebutting me, you want me to rebut you until you have nothing further to add. WTF? You think this is a debate? You tell me without even trying that you can't do it, or you can't help it. I told you time and time again what will happen if you do as you plan. In fact, everything i have ever told you is nothing new because you know it yourself. But you just have to challenge not just me, but yourself. And who pays for it in the end? You. You've screwed up your perfectly normal and happy life in return for short term happiness. Your decisions have made you throw away so many good things that you already took for granted. Look whats happened now? Yet you still haven't learnt your lesson. Im not saying that whatever i told you was right. What im trying to say is, do you even think abt what you are doing let alone think about the facts and the truth which i am merely reminding you of?

I am so sick of giving you advice, yet see you do the complete opposite and literally watch you waste your life, time and morals away. One bad hit does not permanently change your life forever. You continue to make the wrong decisions even though you know they will lead to no good end. What is this? Testing waters? The 1st thing you did was disappointing enough. Remember how i always told you that Neh and I always quarrel whenever we are talking about him? Just a few days ago, for once (in a veryvery blue moon) Neh actually said something nice about him for once. And that just emphasised the fact that you reallyreally threw away treasure for garbage. I quote Melvin "you got out of shit and now you're just rolling back into shit". Seriously......

You know im always here for you. But it is just so sickening to see what you are doing to yourself and it makes me feel worse cos theres nothing i can do. The choices are yours and i can only do so much. You know your cards better than anyone even though i have to lay them out for you. I really don't understand why you keep doing the opposite.

Honestly, i can't bear to see you like this.

I guess its true that everyone has their dark moments.

tw|nKled by t|aRa on 12:24 AM