Thursday, August 17, 2006

There are moments when i tell myself that it's time to let go of the hatred and soreness from the past. I tell myself, its ancient history and time is suppose to heal all wounds. Recently, while i was back in Sg, i was packing some of my things. I saw the box that he gave me, with all the soft toys and other gifts which was given to me after it ended. I decided to open the envelope and read the contents. The past few times whenever i read it, i always felt an ache. Heartache, anger and bitterness. But for the 1st time, i didnt feel a thing. So i knew that i had forgotten abt everything. Unfortunately, the dream i had recently just made all that bitterness come back. I was so horrified and i was thanking god that it was just a dream! It is tiring to have hate in your heart. Well at least it has subsided from hate to bitterness. Oh well, i just wanted to rattle abt that a bit...

im actually contemplating on doing something really really stupid right now. something i would never even think of doing but for some reason i have itchy hands n i soooo feel like doing it now............

will try to occupy myself with other things so i won't do it n end up regretting it!

tw|nKled by t|aRa on 2:37 AM